when they all fall
like a million raindrops
falling from a blue sky
kissing your cares goodbye
they all fall
like a million pieces
a ticker tape parade high
and now you're free to fly
--newsboys.
archive
tunes
+god of wine - third eye blind
+understanding in a car crash
- thursday
+in years to come - thrice
+no me ames
- jennifer lopez/marc anthony
+take me away - lifehouse
+sleeping weather
- small brown bike
+sing for the moment - eminem
+thank you - the katinas
+gossip folks - missy elliot
+landslide - dixie chicks
+miss you - aaliyah
+better than this
- onelinedrawing
+swiss army romance
- dashboard confessional
+letter to myself - furthermore
+Wanksta - 50 cent
+what it is to burn - finch
+ghost man on third
- taking back sunday
+satisfaction - eve
+pride war
- further seems forever
+joe's sick - slick shoes
+without you - LaRue
+this bitter pill
- dashboard confessional
-- Stay silent about your inner conflicts, and you'll end up speaking them alone. So speak up. --
Thursday, December 12
bwah.
i can't believe how excited i am! i'm almost done my finals...yay!!! and now i will finally have the time to get MY life in order. get life organized, improved, content. it's all going to happen. and a whole weekend of not working is so great. and do you know what my mom bought me? white chocolate espresso coffee beans........ohhhhhhhhhhh my goodness. they are the most yummiest things ever. maybe i am just caffiene high right now...hmmm...tomorrow is going to come so quickly even if that means i have to get past the studying til four in the morning tonight part, it's still going to come so fast. considering how time does fly lately.
things are going to be so different. i am going to be so different! yay. can you tell i am excited? anyways, i thought i would post a mini playlist of my own. let's call it songs that make me happy...well even though all music does...=)
motorcycle drive by - 3rd eye blind
joe's sick - slick shoes
speechless - fenix tx
provider - neptunes
honestly - zwan
satisfaction - eve
joy - newsboys
don't walk away eileen - sam roberts. elaine 3:58 PM
Tuesday, December 10
ahhhhhhhhhhh, it's 10:36 pm and i have just come to the conclusion that i am SO NOT READY for my final tomorrow. the panic has begun....the cramming will now also commence. bed time: approximately 3:00 am. let the cramming begin.... elaine 9:39 PM
i just don't get it...
why won't he just leave me alone? it seems like he's crawling back only now that he needs me and because he wants to make "things right" in his life, and by attempting to get me back as a friend, he can have the satisfaction of at least knowing he tried. selfish, selfish. it's crazie though, because he thinks i did the exact thing that i think he did. is he insane? does he not know that i am ALWAYS right. damn it. deja fucking vu all over again. i can't stand it. and the poor guy thinks that he as a chance. sorry to burst that bubble. i'm just busy with finals. i hate people who think that they can take advantage of you anytime they feel like it, and maybe they should learn to consider that the VICTIM actually has FEELINGS! what? feelings? what are those? argh. i hate this. and he just has to use the gay line that if i really had been his friend, then i wouldn't end things over "little difficulties in life." what the hell. little difficulty? crack i tell you, he's on crack. hmmm, let's consider, this is what? the fourth time he has completely pushed me out of his life, and i thought we were friends....blllllllllllllllllaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh.
bitter, i am just bitter. elaine 3:36 PM
