when they all fall
like a million raindrops
falling from a blue sky
kissing your cares goodbye
they all fall
like a million pieces
a ticker tape parade high
and now you're free to fly
--newsboys.
archive
tunes
+god of wine - third eye blind
+understanding in a car crash
- thursday
+in years to come - thrice
+no me ames
- jennifer lopez/marc anthony
+take me away - lifehouse
+sleeping weather
- small brown bike
+sing for the moment - eminem
+thank you - the katinas
+gossip folks - missy elliot
+landslide - dixie chicks
+miss you - aaliyah
+better than this
- onelinedrawing
+swiss army romance
- dashboard confessional
+letter to myself - furthermore
+Wanksta - 50 cent
+what it is to burn - finch
+ghost man on third
- taking back sunday
+satisfaction - eve
+pride war
- further seems forever
+joe's sick - slick shoes
+without you - LaRue
+this bitter pill
- dashboard confessional
-- Stay silent about your inner conflicts, and you'll end up speaking them alone. So speak up. --
Sunday, July 13
--my throat has been ill for one whole week now. Will I ever get better?
--I am the ultimate pool champion. and who hasn't picked up a pool cue in four years? =)
--new discovery: sun roofs in cars make helicoptor noises.
--so, Lina needs a bandaid for her finger from cutting it with the pool cue, so when she gets one, she goes to put it on her kitchen burn...NOT the cut. hahahaha.
--adam gregory has nice parents. and a nice ass.
--caitlin davis does not like country music.
--caitlin, lina and I are cooler than Adam Gregory's groupies - we met him.
--"do you know who I am? I'm Davis' daughter" elaine 2:16 AM
Friday, June 27
argh.
home life is so frustrating. it's moments like these where I know I have to move out. Where all I want to do is scream, throw things, cry, yell. Where no matter what, I just seem so alone, where no one really understands everything, where everything is so wrong... elaine 5:45 PM
Monday, June 23
last night...
i always seem to take my friends for granted. Going over my previous blogs, I'm ashamed at how I felt. Just sitting there, sipping coffee, laughing and reminiscing with Naomi, it just felt so incredible. Nick got to see me in my element, as gay as that sounds. He got to see me completely stressfree and happy. I can't believe that I ever was hesitant with Naomi moving up here. She made that decision to be closer to me. I finally get to be surrounded by all that mean so much to me. (well minus Michelle) I know that life is not always perfect, and there will come the times, where I will be frustrated...however, hopefully, I'll be able to remember last night and everything that encompasses our friendship and be able to just let go of whatever frustration that knocks. I guess it hadn't hit me til yesterday that Naomi, my Naomi is actually going to live in Edmonton!! and I can't believe that before, I didn't want that to really happen! Crazie. One day, we are going to be separated even farther than now, and now that she's moving up here, I have to cherish the time with her, because in time, she'll leave...
~"friends are God's way of taking care of us..."~ elaine 9:06 PM
Sunday, June 15
sometimes you just need a little perspective...
sometimes life is unfair, its harsh, its cruel. sometimes you wake up in the morning, and rather drown in your sleep than live through the day. sometimes you just don't feeling like moving on. sometimes its about being alone. sometimes its about escaping your surroundings. sometimes it just doesn't get better. sometimes its your turn to hurt. sometimes its your turn to learn. sometimes things arent okay. sometimes you want to give up.
sometimes life is like this, and you get used to it.
sometimes its just time to scream and shout. sometimes its okay to be angry at others and at yourself. sometimes you're getting exactly what you deserve, and exactly what you need. sometimes you need a shoulder to cry on, and sometimes you don't. sometimes you need to push away those you care about. sometimes you need them to push back.
sometimes life is like this, and you get used to it.
sometimes you need to know that you're needed. sometimes you need to be told you're beautiful. sometimes its okay to have pride, its okay to be selfish, its okay not to be satisfied. sometimes you need encouragement. sometimes you need to feel you can do anything. sometimes you need help back up when youre down on your knees.
sometimes life is like this, and you get used to it.
and sometimes life is glorious. sometimes through the tears and despair, you find a sense of peace. sometimes you can't help but smile, you can't help but feel loved. sometimes you realize how absolutely lucky you are. sometimes there is sunshine after the storm. sometimes you understand everything you ever went through, good or bad, brought you exactly where you wanted to always be. sometimes life is just so amazing and beautiful.
sometimes life is like this, and you never get used to it. you learn to cherish it.
The NHL's players have named Markus Naslund their MVP, rewarding him with the Lester B. Pearson Trophy! See, Naslund is the best... elaine 4:19 PM
Monday, June 9
another week... Well, here goes to my email of death. I just hope that my "ish" is finally sorted out. I can't just sit here and stew...so this is a good thing actually. =) I love working, being able to make money, having somewhat of a purpose, ie. having to save up money for school and whatnot. I guess people would say I work too much, and that eventually I will overwork myself...but for now, it's all good. It only sucks because I never have time for anything else. So, I apologize to everyone that I don't spend as much time with that I would like too...that's family, friends and myself included! It's good though, to be able to go to work, when I'm stressed out at home and for people like Brandon and Matt to always put a smile on my face, or when Kayla is just her sweet self, or when Michael is just his sarcastic self, yet still making me laugh...I like, and need all that not serious stuff... elaine 9:32 AM
Sunday, June 8
I'm so contradicting, in a way. I just said on the blog beneath that my friends are the bestest in the world...they still are, but what I have also learned over this last month or two is that at times your friends aren't there when you need them, that they change on you, that even though they are incredible, they can do nothing for you. Often we are alone to fight our battles, and although we turn to our friends, they just somehow can't be reached. Maybe doing it alone is the best way possible. At least I have the comfort knowing that there is one person that I can always turn to, one who will never leave my side, one who will always be there... I guess sometimes I just forget...
You calm the storms
and You give me rest
You hold me in Your hands
You won't let me fall
You still my heart
and You take my breath away
